First of all, I want to thank everyone who has continued to follow me, and for the words of enquiry and encouragement that I’ve received from many of my readers.
I stopped writing rather abruptly in July, when my children finished school for the summer. I never intended to take a break from blogging, but between our renovations, and the 5 crazy kids I had underfoot all summer, I was just too exhausted to continue.
My workload completely overwhelmed me to the point that I became depressed and lost interest in my blog. Since seeking treatment, I have realized that I need to have something for myself. Interior design is my passion, and this blog fills my need to share and express my creativity. I am still amazed that bloggers like Kirsten Krason, Danielle Oakey, and Jenny Komenda, to name a few, manage to work, write, care for their children and maintain their homes so seemingly perfectly. I read their blogs and wish that I could have it all together the way they appear to. It also kind of makes me hate them. A little bit.
I mean, honestly, my house is a disaster zone most of the time. I’ve actually contemplated murdering the mailman and burying him in the backyard when I thought he got a glimpse of my house through the window. I work from the minute I get up in the morning at 6:30 am until the minute I go to bed, usually at around 2 am. On top of the endless amount of work that caring for a home and 5 children is, I’ve also been trying to work on our renovations every day. There just simply isn’t enough time in a day to do everything on my list. If I’m inside cleaning, then renovation projects sit half-finished. If I’m out on a ladder, stripping paint from the veranda roof (for example), the dishes pile up inside, and Bella does stuff like paint on every conceivable surface with pink bubble gum toothpaste. (Yes, really.) It is incredibly frustrating to try to juggle all of the demands put on me.
But I am doing my best, here. I guess it’s the perfectionist in me that feels so disappointed that there is not one area of my life right now that I am excelling at. I have a vision in my mind of what I want my home to look like, how I want my business to evolve, and the kind of wife and mother I want to be, but I feel like no matter how hard I work, I never really get to where I want to go.
Sorry to sound like a whiner, but I just thought I owed it to my readers to be completely honest about my long absence from my blog, and where my head is at.
So anyways……I’ve been feeling really great lately, and am excited to begin blogging again. I have a lot of great things to share with all of you, and tons of projects and ideas that will be making their appearance here in the coming days and weeks. I hope all of you will stick around and check in regularly to check out the progress we’ve made on our home, and to chat!